Yes, i'm getting over with him through this Christmas break. I finally revored from this stupid doubts and illusions that keep playing in my mind. It's not clear to me though, I loved him but this eerie feeling is starting again, the feeling is still there but I feel that I stop this foolishness. I'm watching me making a fool of myself. Maybe this is not the right time for him and me. Maybe I'm ready but there's still this hindering feeling in my heart that says to stop. I can't take this feeling anymore. I havent felt anything like this before, not since. Siguro, this feeling is real. I cant continue pretending anymore in front of him. I might as well forget him. Get over with him. If he comes back, then will be done.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12/27/2005 06:44:00 PM

I'm in love with him....

see that phrase..

this phrase plays a lot in my mind..

yes, i love him but, there's still something, something is bothering me. I hope i'll know it soon before it's too late. I love him so. but i have to let go

well, life goes on.. steady lang

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12/17/2005 11:37:00 AM

this song really describes what im feeling right now, this song is dedicated to you. the one who im falling in love with. if you're reading this. and i hope u do.... This is a tagalog song by sponge cola and the title is "una"

Intro: BM7-Bbm (2x)

Verse1:

BM7 Bbm
Muli namang umihip sa akin
BM7 Bbm
Ang hangin ng pag-iisa
BM7 Bbm BM7
Liwanag kang dagling sumilaw sa'king
Bbm
Mga mata

Refrain:

BM7
Nililingon
Bbm
Sinusundan
BM7 Bbm
Dumadalas ang minsan
BM7
Ika'y nar'yan
Bbm
Abot tanaw
BM7 Bbm
Kahit walang dahilan...

Chorus:

BM7
Ma-iiwasan bang...
Bbm
[Ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko]
BM7
Maiiwasan bang...
Bbm
[Ngayo'y lilipas na nang hindi kita nasisilayan]
BM7
Nagkamali sayo...
Bbm
[Nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na]
BM7
Maiiwasan bang...
Bbm Pause
[Lalung mahulog sa'yo]

Verse2:

BM7 Bbm BM7 Bbm
Walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong nilikha
BM7 Bbm BM7 Bbm
Putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala
F#7 Cm
Sa pagkaakit at di pag lapit
F#7 Cm Pause
Nananalangin at umaasa...

Repeat Chorus

Adlib:

Bbm--F#7-Cm- (4x)

Repeat Chorus

Outro:

BM7 Bbm
Lalong mahulog sa 'yo
BM7 Bbm
Hindi madadapa
BM7 Bbm
Hinding-hindi madadapa
BM7 Bbm
Hindi madadapa...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12/06/2005 08:56:00 AM