Yes, i'm getting over with him through this Christmas break. I finally revored from this stupid doubts and illusions that keep playing in my mind. It's not clear to me though, I loved him but this eerie feeling is starting again, the feeling is still there but I feel that I stop this foolishness. I'm watching me making a fool of myself. Maybe this is not the right time for him and me. Maybe I'm ready but there's still this hindering feeling in my heart that says to stop. I can't take this feeling anymore. I havent felt anything like this before, not since. Siguro, this feeling is real. I cant continue pretending anymore in front of him. I might as well forget him. Get over with him. If he comes back, then will be done.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 12/27/2005 06:44:00 PM