yeah, i know! it sucks, even though a few weeks ago I was dying to go to school coz I was sick and tired of vacation :)) lame noh?! hehe! So here I am counting the hours of my last day of summer vacay! shit, now it's time to get serious. Currently listening to Paramore while writing this to get me in the giddy writing mood. :) yeah, so there it is tomorrow is the first day of classes, time to wear that fugly hot white uniform, wake up early and of course, the cursed schedule we have (specifically a 6 hour break).
Up until now, I just can't believe that I am a sophie comm arts student. How did I manage my freshie year? POORLY is what I say! haha! Too many things got in my way, the things that aren't worth it. The things that are so "babaw", yeah i know, for the past year I was being stupid, I wasted a lot of money, time and effort for nonsense things that made my life complicated. Yes, I confess, I am stupid of making those choices that I have made. I regret the things I did for the past year, but what's the use of wasting my time sulking because I chose wrong choices, the damage has been done and all I have to do is make up to it.
I've learned a lot from last school year that made me wiser, with the help of my loved ones now I know what to do in my life. All I got to do is strive hard to be the best, now I would do the things I want in my life, i'll do what I WANT not other people's opinion. Whatever I do, I should think for myself, for once in my life, I am enlightened of what happened to me. from now on, i'll promise myself that I won't be the same old Charns I was, yes, I am going to change, for good. I'll forget the past because that's the thing that's holding me back. This time I won't let anyone ruin my life, this time I am going to fight for my right, and that right is TO BE ME .
To all the people who did awful things to me, well, i don't FUCKING care about them anymore, Karma works, and i believe that. Those are the people who aren't worth my friggin time, to that person, well, thank you for making me feel worthless for one moment, because at that moment I realize one thing, you're the one who's worthless.. yes, call me a bitch, but that's the way it is dude, in fairness, ikaw ang nauna ang gumawa ng kalokohan. Now I know what's right for me, If I know it's right, then paninindigan ko, NEVER AGAIN that I will take the blame for other people's stupidity or wrong doings.
The things that happened to me made me realize one thing, di na ako mag-seself pity, now it's different.I'll believe on what's right and what's good. For myself and my loved ones... my true loved ones. :)
I just want to thank those people who were just there for me when I was sad, I thank my friends and my family I love you all. This school year, I'll prioritize, I promise! :)

oh and by the way, to the asshole who broke my <3, well, you're pathetic. I just want to say that HINDI KA KAWALAN! period. sana wala ka ng maloko pa ha?!.. ang galing mo, gsto kitang palakpakan.. IN FAIRNESS! and you know what? you suck. oh yes, I am a bitch. thank you!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 6/12/2007 03:57:00 PM