This feeling that ihave is going to explode.. im really confused of what im going to do next, there are a lot of things inside my head that are really bothering me. DAMN.. i feel like a fool, i feel that im so isolated in this world i cant even express what I really feel. The more I love him the more i get hurt. I just hope everything will be all right. I'm super depressed. Maybe i am? I'm torned apart between two people that are important in my life. Still, something aches beyond. Something tells me loving him is the one that can destroy me. It really aches saying goodbye to him, it feels that it is so surreal. The feeling I have for him is real, i only have one choice that is the best, it is to say goodbye to him. Maybe im just having this false hopes. There are a lot of fishes in the sea. But nothing can replace him. Maybe i'll get over him in time. I just hope that the truth will all come out. I'm just having this hunch. This is what im feeling, i have this hunch this prickly pain that i can feel. I just hope my guess isnt correct. I've might as well let him go for the good.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1/08/2006 12:37:00 PM