Last night, something happened to me. I was sulking again, I only had 4 hours of sleep, I miss him so much, ang daming pangyayari. I feel so alone. Feeling ko hindi na ako mahalaga. nakagawa ako ng poem, habang ginagawa ko to tumutulo ang luha. basang basa na nga yung papel.

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I'm slowly dying, my scarred heart is failing
My dreams and hopes are slowly fading away
My soul is being torn apart without you
I gave you my stars and my heart

I can't imagine life without you
Can you hear me?
Are you confused? I hope not
I love you so much, I don't want to lose you
This distance is killing me

Do you still love her?
I know, I know all of it, but still I love you
I trust you
I thought it was only a trashed and forgotten part of your memory
I must be wrong, I'm hoping I'm wrong.
Why I am feeling that you're far away?
Do you ever miss me?

I've been hurt many times, I was hoping that you are the one
The one that I'll be spending my life with,
My dreams are fading away, I've lost my grip

I still love you, can't you see?
I'll never take my heart back
It's your property.
I'll love you until my last breath
In my deathbed, I'll still whisper your name

I really love you.
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while I was making this poem, paulit-ulit yung scars of a failing heart by typecast. I feel that I'm so alone. I'm wishing that he misses me too. ='( so this how it feels to have been scarred. ='(

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 5/08/2006 06:14:00 PM